Saturday, August 3, 2013

Catch up!

I don't even know what to say!
Where did these last two and a half weeks go? Really? 
It's weird, because they've gone by so fast, but so much has happened in that time. 

Hmm...let me back-track.
Last time I wrote I was finally starting to like it here and was excited about moving into the city for the rest of my family's stay. That weekend was incredible. I had the pleasure of going to The Plaza for tea, visiting the site of Ground Zero, getting to see my first Broadway show The Lion King, discovering Times Square, and attend Wicked at the famous Gershwin Theatre. 
*The night my mom, sister, and I went to Wicked is the first time I felt the 'magic' of the city. I was getting to see a show close to my heart on its original stage, I got to 'talk shop' with some of the cast at the stage door after the show, and filled up on some Shake Shack while feeling the energy of the city lights. I've never felt that way- EVER. I just felt alive (cheesy, but true).
The next day my dad and siblings dropped off my mom and I to the apartment we're staying at, said our goodbyes, and left for the airport. Then it was off to bed before the big day. Except, there really wasn't any sleep involved. I was terrified. 
There were few words said as we walked into the building and climbed into the elevator. We entered Ripley Grier, mama wished me luck along with a big hug, and we headed off into different directions. 
I stood in line until it was finally my turn and I stepped up to get my folder/name tag. Wait. It said I was an acting major, but I was prepared for voice (all on me...oops)! After trying to hide my freak out, they told me to attend the vocal auditions for the day and they'd figured out the rest later.
Orientation, dance call, and lunch went well, I still felt a little thrown off and uneasy. 
At the beginning of vocal auditions I was feeling confident and good, but the longer I sat there the 
confidence slowly faded away. Last to get up there, I tried not to let the nerves take over, but they did and my performance didn't go to well. Ahh. When having our student-advisor meeting I decided I didn't want to be more of an annoyance  with them having to re-vamp my whole schedule, so I just said I'd perfect my monologues that night and stay an acting major for the week. 
Long story short, the first few days were filled with numerous meltdowns and questioning if this business was for me, but everything turned around on Wednesday when I was given a new monlogue to work on with my coach and a solo in the group number for the industry showcase. I was getting the hang of things, learning lots, and making new friends! The Industry Showcase days consist of: all morning rehearsal/run through, lunch/preparation, we all gather in a large room and then the industry (top NYC casting agencies, producers, directors, etc.) arrive. We have a Q&A, a group number, and dance major combinations, then we all split off into the three assigned rooms. The panel is split up into these rooms (5-7 in each), along with about 35 kids. It takes about 2 1/2-3 hours with a 5 minute intermission. 
The showcase that Friday went really well, the group number was spot on, and I got great feedback on my monologue. After saying goodbye to many new friends, Mama and I headed off to see Phantom of the Opera! I had been waiting for forever to see it, and it was awesome!
That weekend we had family friends visit and we saw Annie. That Sunday I had a master class back at the studios then back home for a nights rest before another long week. 

This week went incredibly well. Vocal and dance auditions were great on Monday.
On Tuesday we got to see Kinky Boots!  It was AMAZING! Totally blew me away. LOVED it. 
We had a Q&A with Bilky Porter (Tony Winner) the week before and it was so fun to see him become 'Lola' on stage! His performance was stunning. 
I got to have master classes with some really incredible people: Jenn Colella, Vince di Mura, Celeste Simone, Andrea Burns, and a Q&A with Duncan Sheik! 

I learned so much this week, not only about the business and technique, 
but about what's really important
Ahh, this is so hard to explain. 
It's so easy to get lost in this business. It's easy to lose yourself, beat yourself up, 
constantly be competitive, and obviously there's much more to that. 

"You're going to get nowhere with negative thoughts. Surround the people around you with positive energy. Accept what's happening right now, you're where you're supposed to be. You have control to complete the path you want to take. Always be kind to yourself."

"Failure is 90% of success. It's okay to be afraid, but not okay to give into it. The thing getting in your way is YOU. Always be doing your best, because you never know when you're going to get the call and you need to be prepared."

I learned that its not about having the best voice or being the best dancer, 
but being able to deliver the story.
You can't let other's opinions affect you, because its not for them, it's for you. 
And that supporting the people around you, celebrating yourself, and 
Putting out a healthy/positive energy is not only what people are going to be attracted to you for, 
But will also make you feel complete/at your best.
It all comes down to just being YOU. 

I thought last week's showcase couldn't get much better, but it did.
I've got some pretty exciting things coming my way and I'm so lucky. 

I'm in love with it here and wish I never had to leave. 
Trying not to think about it...

Thanks for all the love and support!


Wednesday, July 17, 2013

"I want to be apart of it...New York, New York!"

Ahhhh....a whole other week!
I'm sorry...I really am...
The end of last week was crazy busy with me getting ready to leave and once I got here, I just got all wrapped up in things.

Anyways...I'm here!

As we flew into the city, I was filled with excitement! The images of climbing into my first taxi ride, walking down Times Square, and standing under the Broadway marquis swarmed my head and I couldn't wait to experience it all. I had dreamed of going to New York my whole life...this was HUGE! 

(Ooh how do I explain this...?) 
When we got in the car to drive to the place that we're staying in Brooklyn, my heart slowly began to drop. 
This wasn't what I imagined!
It smelled terrible, there was garbage everywhere, there were no shiny tall buildings, and 
everything was dirty. But, most importantly there wasn't the New York classiness that I've always longed for. After we rolled through all 'Stop' signs with the car doors locked while driving in the sketchiest place we'd ever seen (...and I thought my neighborhood was bad!) we finally found the place where we'd be staying for the week. What was this? It wasn't the old, cool brownstone i'd pictured. The disappointment I had, grew larger. I started to get nervous, because I didn't love it. All I could think was "Oh my gosh. What am I going to do? I've planned my whole life around this place and I don't think I could handle living here." I always knew it would obviously be way different here than in Montana, but it kind of shocked me how different it really is. For the first few days I was here, I was really confused. It was a lot to wrap my mind around.  But, during those first few days I had only been in Brooklyn and the Bronx. I'd only seen the city skyline, but hadn't been in it yet. With what Brooklyn and the Bronx had to offer, I put it under Manhattan too. On Tuesday we hopped on the subway to Manhattan, feeling a little bit better, I wasn't expecting much, but still was hoping it may be different then Brooklyn, etc. When I walked up the stairs and onto the sidewalk, my breath was taken away. YES! This was the New York i'd always imagined. Central park was right there, the architecture was stunning, people were buzzing, the little shops and cafes were booming, etc! It was beautiful. Even though I only got to enjoy it for a few minutes before we hopped back on the subway, it took a huge weight of my shoulders and planted a seed of excitement/eagerness inside of me. Now all I can think about is what I get to go back to tomorrow, and where we'll be staying for the rest of the week 
Ahh! I'm so excited, I don't think i'll be able to sleep! 

We'll be staying in the city until my family (Dad & siblings) leaves my mom and I behind. Once they leave, my mom and I will go back to Brooklyn where we'll be staying for the next three weeks
 (different apartment/whole different area than where we're staying now- thank goodness)!
Then it is only the next morning that i'll be heading off to start my first day of class. EEK! I'm getting so so nervous, that sometimes I have to put in my headphones and listen to some Bernadette Peters to calm me down. Haha!  
Right now, they're holding the Alumni session, so it's been fun to follow them (Broadway Artist Alliance) on twitter, facebook, etc. and get a glimpse of what i'll be joining in on next week! It's going to be an amazing experience and I can't wait to be apart of it. Meanwhile, i'm constantly listening and practicing the songs that I'll have to show on the first day I get there.

Sorry again for the late update!
Hope all of you are doing well and are enjoying your break.
It may be summer, but I have to be up at 5a.m. to head into the city for some sightseeing (much better than waking for school)! 

Thank you so much for your support!

PS: A few days ago I had to turn in what I want to have labeled on my headshot and resume. For the past few months I've been going back and forth on whether I want to be "Olivia Longin" or "Liv Longin". 
I finally went with what my gut was telling me and 
officially am/will be in the future "Liv Longin". 
I think it's a good 'stage name'- has a nice ring to it!
What do you think?

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

My Music Choices

"Tomorrow" as in two days later...sorry!
I've been asked numerous times if I have to take anything to the camp to perform,
and yes I do!
Each week I'm there, I have a certain major that i'll be working on. My first week will be voice, my second Acting, and my third voice, again. I have to have two 32-Measure prepared, contrasting songs per voice major (4 songs total) and two monologues per acting major (1 dramatic & 1 comedic).  
They make it very clear that picking music that isn't overdone, is in your best interest.
For example: You wouldn't want to sing "Defying Gravity" from Wicked, because casting agencies, directors, etc. have seen 800 girls sing it, making it harder to stand out.
Feeling the pressure of choosing not only music that I would connect to, but also ones that I have rarely heard, was really stressful. Especially, coming from Montana where nobody knows what Thoroughly Modern Millie is and in New York everybody's sick of listening to it.
After days of searching and listening to songs i've never heard and learning about different shows, I finally decided on my four pieces.
1. One Night with You- All Shook Up
I was apart of this show my Freshman year and loved it!
It has such a fun vibe!
2. Disneyland- Smile
I had never heard of this show before, until my friend from NY reccomended it.
I'm glad he did! This show 'Smile' only was on Broadway for 48 days, turning out to be a total flop. This made it really hard to find the sheet music to the song, which almost made me unable to do it. I luckily ran by a book that had this song in it, and snatched it up right away. I really wanted to do this piece, because it's really great to act to.
3. I Get a Kick out of You- Anything Goes
Sutton Foster is one of my greatest idols! She is fabulous!
I mean who doesn't love this song?
It's so classy and flirtsy.
LOVE it.
4. Whispering- Spring Awakening
I had heard of Spring Awakening, but never really checked into what it was about.
I'll let you look it up on your own...
It's really interesting and the music is beautiful.
I didn't originally plan to do this song, until I randomly showed it to my voice teacher.
I had listened to it, but quickly erased it from the list, due to it not being my usual type of song choice. I tend to lean towards the 'cutesy/flirtsy' pieces, not the dark/emotional ones.
At first, I didn't agree with her that it was  definetly one to be done, but after looking up what the show is about and listening to it over repeatedly, I fell in love with it.
It's been a challenge for me, with having to dig down deep inside myself and find that emotional side.
Singing it is so...( I don't even know how to explain it).
It's beautiful and it's probably my favorite.
Overall, I'm really really happy with my choices and
look forward to getting critique on how to make them better!
Thank you for following my journey and for all of your support!

Monday, July 8, 2013

My Fundraiser

Two and a half weeks since I wrote my last post? Where did that time go?!
June really flew by and writing posts escaped me, but i'm back!
A HUGE thank you to all of the people who came and supported me at my fundraiser!
All the hard work put into the event was totally worth getting to see so many familiar faces and it was really special knowing they were all there to support me.
The nachos were a good idea (and super yummy)! 
We had a Broadway themed dessert table with cupcakes that my mom and I made
and New York Cheesecake, of course!
Some of the faces I was so excited to see that night:

 ....and many more!
Thank you to these guys and dolls for helping set up, serve, take down, etc...
My cousin Kaylen and her friend Mari came from Missoula to play during the event.
They were a HIT! Everybody loved listening to them.
This was when Kaylen was playing Defying Gravity from "Wicked" for me
and she sounded amazing. I love her so much!
Check their album out on iTunes under "Baby and Bukowski"- you'll be so glad you did!
HUGE thank you to my amazing Mama!
None of this would have been possible without her positive energy, hard work, and
great amount of love.
Overall it was a great night and something i'll remember for forever!
If you weren't able to make it to my event, but would still like to donate, you can here:
The fundraiser brought me so so so so close to my goal and it would be incredible if I could reach it!
Thank you all again for your support, it means so much!
6 more days until NYC! ..........Wait.......What?
Obviously, it hasn't hit me yet.
Today i'll be busy practicing my music and monologues that I have to have prepared when I get to my intensive. I'll tell you more about those tomorrow...

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Dream Big!

After a long afternoon of grocery shopping, picking up more postcards, and checking out the venue for my fundraiser, I came home to find that these goodies had arrived!
Meaningful and Simple- Just the way I like things!
If you'd like to purchase one and help be a part of getting me to NYC for only $3,
I'll be selling them at my fundraiser!
If you're unable to make it to the event and would still like to support my dream, please email me at and we will work something out!
I hope all of you are having a nice summer filled with lots of sun and relaxation!
I know i'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can, before I head off to the big city.
Only 35 more days! EEK!
Do you know what I just realized as i'm re-reading old posts?! I only have 25 MORE DAYS until NYC! NOT 35!!!!!!! ..........oh dear.......

Monday, June 17, 2013

"NYC...Up there, In Lights, I'll be..."

Yesterday, as I was looking through old photos of my Dad and I, I found these gems!
I remember this night pretty well, as it pops into my head quite frequently.
(It was the summer of 2002, so I would have been 5).
I was so excited that Avery was visiting and that we got to get dressed up for such a special event. "Annie" was one of my favorite movies and I couldn't wait to see it in person!
We felt so fancy in our little dresses as we headed off to go see my first play!

Littly Avy and I thought we were identical and loved when people would ask if we were sisters.
 Weren't we sweet?
I remember sitting up out of my chair, watching with wide eyes, and couldn't believe what I was watching. This was the greatest thing I had ever seen!
I was in love.

Katie (who played the role of Annie) was our frequent babysitter
when I was younger, and I adored/adore her!
I think she really helped me/had a huge impact on me finding my love of musical theatre.
She always had us dancing and singing to Footloose, Annie, or some Disney tunes!

I remember that I couldn't fall asleep that night, because I couldn't stop thinking of the production and how bad I wanted to be a part of something like that!
I had no idea of what was to come in the future, and how those dreams would unfold.
It still really hasn't hit me yet that this is happening. I keep drifting in and out of reality!
These next few weeks, before I go, I'll be busy working on the songs and monologues
that I have to have prepared for when I arrive at the Intensive.
The nerves are starting to arrive, but otherwise I'm so excited!
Psssst...Don't forget to come to the fundraiser I'll be having
Thursday, June 27th at the Black Eagle Community Center
(2332 Smelter Ave. NE, Black Eagle).
$5 all you can eat Nacho Bar/Raffle/Silent Auction
(Under 5 eat free!)
I'd love to see you there!
Thank you again for supporting my dreams!

Friday, June 7, 2013

Little Mouse, Big Cheese!

Hi Guys!
Look at these fun photos I ran across of me when I was in the Nutcracker!
I was just about 7 and was so excited to be part of such a magical show.
Actually, this was the first time I had ever been in a production/on a real stage.
I only lasted about one year in dance, before I couldn't take it anymore.
Now, I love dancing and wish I would have stuck with it.
Plus, it would have made things way easier for me now, considering I have to start from the beginning at an older age! ;)
Even if dance wasn't my forte at the time, I loved being on that stage!
Only 36 MORE DAYS until I'll be headed on my way to NYC! I can't believe it! It's crazy!
We'll be holding a fundraiser  on Thursday, June 27th at the Black Eagle Community Center
(2332 Smelter Ave. NE, Black Eagle).
$5 all you can eat Nacho Bar/Raffle/Silent Auction
(Under 5 eat free!)
I hope you can make it!
If you can't make it the fundraiser, but still would like to support me, you may donate at:
Thank you for all the support and make sure to keep checking up on the blog while i'm counting down the days to NYC!